It’s the second to last Friday of my time at BCIT. After four terms and maybe one sick day in each of those, I’ve hit a brick wall this week. I first felt in coming on Wednesday morning when I was scheduled to mentor a first year student on their shoot. It was even worse the next morning, when I had to go in for a full day to “mentor” first years, but really I just sat in an edit suite and edited my Day in the Life video from about 8 AM til 4 PM. I had to stick around a little while after that too, so realistically I had a nice full, 10 hour day.
That wouldn’t be so bad if I could feel the impending illness approaching closer and closer. I get home in a coughing fit, my head throbbing and feeling like it’s on fire, it hurts to cough or sneeze or even swallow, and my entire body just feels stiff. So, safe to say that I’ll wouldn’t be leaving my bed today.
Well, I did leave a few times to make food and now I’m on the couch watching hockey. Which I seem to always be doing while I write these blog posts. I suppose it helps with the informal feel I try to give with these blogs. You’re basically reading my thoughts as they spew out of my mind, if you’re wondering why they are at times nonsensical. The background noise of hockey – entertaining, non-Canucks hockey – just helps me keep froing going insane, I guess. I say that as a diehard Canucks fan too. They must be the most poorly run organization in the NHL, or at least have been for much of the last three years.
Anyways, my Day in the Life video. I decided to have fun with this and went to visit my friend, Ben, who attended BCIT for the first year of the Television & Video Production program. He decided not to come back as his interest lies more in film than in broadcast, and I don’t blame him because the program does force us to do quite a bit of irrelevant work. The jobs in news broadcasting they seem so adamant on training us for no longer exist. The focus very much needs to change to more live events, like sports and concerts, or go fully towards film. Enough complaining though, here’s the video.
I fully anticipate my instructors docking me for various technical faults, or because I didn’t have a proper interview, or whatever. I’ve talked a lot about how incredible an experience it was to work on I Am Heath Ledger, and in watching many of his home videos throughout that process I wanted to try and replicate some of his techniques in how it was shot and edited. I also had two scenes from our documentary in mind when cutting this. So for its faults in some technical aspects, I think it’s really well paced and just an enjoyable watch.
Plus, the song I used brings another connection. The song, “March On”, is by N’fa Jones. N’fa is one of Heath’s childhood friends, and the song was used in our documentary as well. I found a lot of great music in the process of working on that film, and I couldn’t help but use some of it in one of my final BCIT projects. Especially because it was being designed to try and mimic Heath’s own videos.
I’ve been staring at the screen for a little while now, unsure what to write. I don’t know have much to say about work now, other than I really hope I get to go back. As for school… I want it to be over. It’s been a difficult two years and while we all made it work for the most part because we had to, I’m finding it more apparent that a lot of the personalities just don’t mesh.
At least mine doesn’t.
When I tried to invite some of my classmates to come see a screening of I Am Heath Ledger I was teased because I was talking about it so much. Which I was. Who wouldn’t if their first feature film credit premiered at Tribeca and was playing in theatres across the world, though?
Contrasting that, I invited my best friends from high school, people who I consider my brothers. Their response? Any chance they have to support me like that, they’ll be there. I don’t mean to sound like we’re doing something incredibly difficult, in fact I’m lucky that I get to work in a rather ridiculous industry instead of worrying about more pressing matters or doing something more… serious, I guess? It is still a difficult industry to get into, and certainly will be a difficult industry to maintain a career in. So you have to surround yourself with people who believe in you and support you for doing something that’s honestly a little bit crazy.
You have to be a little bit crazy to decide to go into the film industry.
That’s not to say it’s been all bad. There are absolutely people that I hope to remain good friends with even after graduation. But that number is much smaller than I thought it was even a year ago, and unfortunately it seems some things just aren’t salvageable. Then again, I’ve never really been one to have huge groups of friends, just like I’m not one to get a huge group of people together to go clubbing. I’d rather be out at a pub with three or four friends, where we can get our music playing and take over a pool table and just hang out for hours. It gives us the chance to sit and converse and really connect with the people you’re with, instead of just a whirlwind of craziness.
It’s been a crazy roller coaster ride, from September 2015 to now. There are certainly things I wish I could change or totally undo. There really are. I suspect some of those things will haunt me for a while to come. It was an experience though. One I needed to have, for all the good and bad. Now it’s just time to go start a career doing something I’ve wanted to do for many, many years.
Which reminds me. One of the stories in I Am Heath Ledger is about how he had these glow-in-the-dark stars on his bedroom ceiling. His dad said he’d point to them and say, that’s where he was going to go. He was going to Hollywood to become an actor, and he’d be among the stars.
When I was a little kid, the first thing I wanted to be was a Jedi Knight. To grow up and be trained by Luke Skywalker. Of course, I soon found out that wasn’t possible, so I started to watch the credits of films and TV shows to see all the names of the people who made those shows possible. All the different jobs they did. While I didn’t always know what it was I wanted to do, it always seemed to come back to storytelling; filmmaking, in particular. As I got older, watching the credits almost became sort of a… visualization exercise. Seems the names, the jobs, more and more connections to Vancouver, and dreaming of maybe one day getting to see my name up there.
On Thursday, May 4th, 2017, that dream became a reality at a screening of I Am Heath Ledger at The Park Theatre in Vancouver.
Hopefully it won’t be the last time.